I’m no longer in NYC, although the memories of what happened on that day- in September, will Never disappear. I’ve been watching the History Channel for the last couple of hours, and I’ve seen footage, that while even Being there at the time, … I hadn’t been aware of.
I was on the air here, today in Charlotte– and they aired produced pieces done by the well known air talents that were HERE- at that moment-. As well produced as they were… it was not the same as Being there. I wish they had asked me, …someone that HAD been there…to offer something for this day. The thing I would have offered, that in no way what so ever, they could have known about- was, the ‘smell.’ It was horrific. All the way out in Queens, Nassau, Suffolk,… we could smell the burning metal, flesh and ashes that were blowing in our direction.
We were calling friends that never picked up the phones. Friends that we knew worked in the World Trade Center- possibly friends we’d never talk to again.
There’s a difference between living in the USA, somewhere other than NYC- and seeing it happen on TV, versus BEING in NYC or Long Island and FEELING it happen.
I offer my deepest sympathies for all that lost those they loved. I can’t say that I feel your pain, … but I CAN say, that I felt your dispair. It was the most intense feeling that I’ve ever experienced. Sorrow at it’s extremity, at least in MY lifetime.
On a day like today, I just want you all to know, that if you’re feeling that pain, Again– …it’s understandable, and you’re Allowed. Grief doesn’t just ‘go away.’ It takes time. Whether it’s 6 months or 20 years… you’re Allowed to Take your Time without people sitting in judgement of you.
I, as well as others, are here for you. We CARE. We Understand, and we ’empathize,’ not just ‘sympathize.’
We smelled that smell too.
I’m so terribly sorry.